July 29, 2020
my thoughts for today
I can’t quite figure it out, but my gut is telling me that something isn’t right. I have no idea what, but the feeling is there.
Only time will tell
Stay the course
It will all work out…
So, what is trusting your gut anyway? It’s your intuition that is so deeply instinctual that even if we’ve been out of touch with it for our entire lives, it’s still there inside of us, waiting for us to summon its wisdom and it is your immediate understanding of something. It’s your “knowing“… (onelove)
There’s so much going on…
is it the pandemic that’s causing my unease?
or the chaos in the country/world?
or something closer to home?
Things seem to be okay on the home front, at least on the surface anyway. The Son of a Leprechaun is doing good, working things out with my boyfriend, and the property/house is in good shape. I do know I need to get tested to see if I’ve had covid-19.
Maybe that’s what’s bugging me.
Is there a possibility? Yes. But, if I came into contact with it, it was before all this started. Like, the end of last year, very beginning of this year… my boyfriend got real sick, with the chills, fever, feeling wiped out. Like he had the flu, but he kept on going. I never got as sick as he did, but did feel wiped out sometimes. Still feel wiped out sometimes, if I try to do too much. But I’ve been blaming it on the heat.
I’m naturally hot (haha!), ever since I had my last operation in 2015 and went through early menopause. When this pandemic first broke out, I was always taking my temperature, never any fever. And for the first two months of the shut down, I didn’t do any shopping. Only starting shopping once a week back in June. And since my asthma attack/heat exhaustion episode a few weeks back, I’m back to staying home for the most part. Have only left the house twice since then, and even then, I didn’t get out of the car.
What ever it was, I never felt bad enough to go to the doctor’s. I do believe they’ve opened up testing in my area to everyone… so I guess I’ll be getting that done. I will be sure to let you know…but it takes two weeks, they say, to get the results back.
Sometimes, it helps to write all this down. Helps to figure things out! Thanks for riding this out with me 🙂