November 20, 2020

my thoughts for today…
the big, bold words/lyrics are
song lyrics I included just to show
what/how I feel about all this covid
mess, if you want just skip over it and read that part later
It might make more sense… it’s just how my brain is working
at the moment
Things might to “tough” but things will work out!

Hope you enjoy!!

every little thing’s gonna be alright

(linked to youtube)

Yesterday was a little bit of a bummer. I’m ok, was just hoping that the visit to the doctor’s went a little better. I went to the doc’s because I have skin tag on my arm that has become irritated. Normally, for me, a skin tag is really of no concern. I’ve had this particular skin tag for years! But, Sunday night, I must’ve been sweating in my sleep and it got stuck to my skin, specifically my rib cage. If you know what I mean. Anyway, it became irritated and swollen. I stuck a bandaid on it and went about life, changing it once a day or so. Well, when I took the bandaid off Wednesday night, my boyfriend took one look at is and said I needed to go to the docs and have it removed. (He hasn’t really been around for over a week… well, actually longer than that)

The skin tag kinda looks like a flat mushroom, on a short stalk. The swelling has gone down, and because of the bandaid, my skin is irritated.

I think it’s time we stop
Children, what’s that sound?
Everybody look what’s going down

So, I went to a walk in clinic…forgetting about the regulations due to covid. I couldn’t get an appointment until 1115 am. So I went back home for a while. I was very anxious, to say the least.

There’s something happening here
But what it is ain’t exactly clear
There’s a man with a gun over there
A-telling me, I got to beware

And, I went back at my scheduled time…medical mask and all. Took my temperature and all that good stuff. My blood pressure was elevated, my heart rate elevated… of coarse it was! This is the first time I have been to the doctor’s since covid hit.
The nurse practitioner looked at my skin tag and told me I needed to see my family doctor. She said she thought she could take care of it, but if they needed to biopsy it or if there was any bleeding, it would be on her. Which I completely understand…I was just hoping to have it cut off or frozen. And be done with it.
Oh, after she finished with saying I should go to my family doctor, she took my blood pressure again…it was normal, so was my heart rate! At least she had good humor about it…I’ve actually had docs take my blood pressure after the appointment, always the same result. “White coat syndrome” – that’s what my original doctor said to me one time.

There’s battle lines being drawn
And nobody’s right if everybody’s wrong
Young people speaking their minds
Are gettin’ so much resistance from behind

So, I went home. I felt like crying…but it wasn’t really worth the tears. I got on the phone with my family doctor after a little bit…they can’t see me until December 8! Am I frustrated? Yes! What can I do? Deal with it…and keep a bandaid on until then.
My skin is really getting irritated from the bandaid. I’ve got some treatment stuff for skin that’s irritated from bandaids and medical tape, I just need to find it. Maybe in the evenings, while I’m relaxing after dinner I can leave the bandaid off for a little bit. We shall see… maybe it will fall off on its own…

What a field day for the heat (Ooo-ooo-ooo)
A thousand people in the street (Ooo-ooo-ooo)
Singing songs and a-carryin’ signs (Ooo-ooo-ooo)
Mostly say, “Hooray for our side” (Ooo-ooo-ooo)

Well, that is basically why I wasn’t around yesterday. But that was yesterday, today is a new day.

But before I go, I think my boyfriend and I pretty much done. Not that I haven’t tried, I think he’s pretty much given up that things will work out between us. He’s not even trying… I have no idea… I’m focusing on what I need to do…

I guess I should really call him my ex…

I’m sure there will be more to come, I just don’t know at this point. Let it go, as they say, at this point. If we are meant to be, things will work out. If not, I will move on.

Paranoia strikes deep
Into your life it will creep
It starts when you’re always afraid
Step out of line, the man come and take you away

(lyrics from “For What It’s Worth
by Buffalo Springfield)

hope you have a great day!
thanks for stopping by!!

Take Me To Neverland

take care
stay safe
much love

I was made for this life
don’t worry ’bout me
I am not afraid
Everything that is to be
Will be